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I had been wrestling again.
Like Jacob, I had some issues I needed to trestle through with God and I longed for time alone so we could do this. Get it over with. Put it to rest.
The opportunity unexpectedly presented itself on an evening in which three little people were asleep and my mate had some work to do that would keep us from time together.
“What?!!!!” I said. I stared into the fire. I was upset. Angry. Just plain annoyed, really.
“WHAT!!!???? What am I not getting that you need to keep dragging me through this same issue but dressed in different clothes now for THREE LONG MONTHS?” I demanded.
“WHAT EXACTLY IS IT???” I not so kindly asked because you know, I’d like to get this nailed down, thank you very much.
Then stillness. A gentle nudge. A softness.
“Show me what you got, girl, ” He said.
“What?” I replied again for about the tenth time in three minutes.
“Well, now. You wax poetic about all of this stuff about me and how I work. That’s easy to do. Now show me that you can apply it, dear one.”
Just like that – a lightening bolt to the heart, a message as clear as the water I was sipping. I absolutely believe the thoughts I write. I’m not a fraud or a phony. I value God’s truth and like to share it with others.
Which is, of course, easy to do when things are going on along just swimmingly.
However, I so often share Jeremiah 29:11 and Romans 8:28 as an encouraging pair – we know His plan for us is good. I know He is the Wonderful Counselor, the Mighty God, the Everlasting Father, the Prince of Peace.
I know He is sovereign – He’s all-knowing, all-powerful, all-loving, all-everything.
I know His ways are not my own.
I know that He is my refuge, my strength. An ever-present help in need.
“If you know all of this about me, why aren’t you trusting me? Trust me, ” I hear.
“Place this in my hands – release control. Just trust me – with all of it, ” He reiterates.
Psalm 9 invades my thoughts. Those who know your name trust in you, for you, LORD, have never forsaken those who seek you (v.10).
I’m drawn to Brother Lawrence’s Practicing God’s Presence. I pick it up and begin to read.
“Our job is to serve God in holy freedom, which means working faithfully and keeping to our job descriptions without whining or complaining. It also means gently steering our thoughts and minds back to the Lord if we ever get off track. I have to say, thought, that we need to invest 100 percent of our trust in God. Nothing less will do. This means we lay aside all of our cares and worries. It might also mean we lay aside some devotions if they get to be just a routine – something we do over and over or for the wrong reasons” (p.47-48).
I pray. I seek forgiveness for my frustration, for my anger. For wanting resolution in my time and not thinking about His.
I feel at peace. As my husband greets me in our bathroom and we prepare to end this day, he finds a woman possessing a completely different perspective than the one he left just an hour prior.
I sleep restfully for the first time in several nights.
The next morning, I open my Jesus Calling devotional. It is January 4.
I want you to learn a new habit. Try saying “I trust you, Jesus” in response to whatever happens to you. If there is time, think about who I AM in all My Power and Glory; ponder also the depth and breadth of My Love for you. This simple practice will help you to see Me in every situation, acknowledging My sovereign control over this universe. When you view events from this perspective – through the Light of My universal Presence – fear loses its grip on you. Adverse circumstances become growth opportunities when you affirm your trust in Me no matter what. You receive blessings gratefully, realizing they flow directly from My hands of grace. Your continual assertion of trusting Me will strengthen our relationship and keep you close to Me.
OK. I’m listening.
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